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[groovychk]

I'm having some difficulty with reality right now. My brain isn't accepting the fact that he's done this to me and it's starting to worry me. I think I am going to need to talk to a professional about this. My rational mind knows reality and I am plodding through the days on rational drive. But the other half of my brain doesn't accept it. For example - I'll be driving home and I'm thinking about what we're gonna do and eat and watch, etc. Then it hits me and my rational mind says "Oh yeah". Then then thought processes about what we're gonna do, etc. continue. I have to fight it.
This is not good. This isn't like times before with other people or even the time before with him. I think I'm really broken this time.
At night I'll finally win the battle and convince the crazy half of myself of reality.... when that happens I just break down completely.
Sleep takes a very long time to come. It's all taking its toll.
I'm not sure what to do right now. I'll talk to Mom tonight.

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Hang in There!

[(Anonymous)]

If this was a poster, I'd be a picture of a kitty cat hanging by one paw from a branch with the headline "Hang in There."