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Been several weeks since I felt like posting. Lots seems to happen - waiting so long makes it hard to get it all in.
Today would have been our third anniversary. I'm sure we would have gone to Il Sorento (wonderful italian restaurant David took us to on our previous anniversaries). Horribly depressed today. David and I actually went out to eat dinner last night then went to my house so he could see Bou and meet Snoopy. Bou was ecstatic to see him - just amazes me how happy he was. This all makes me so sad. I just discovered his livejournal draugr - I'd never known it was there. I read all his posts - it makes me want him back even more. I *was* only mentioned twice though and never by name :-/
It was so comfortable for me and I felt so good having him back, even so briefly. The evening was short and I took him back to where he's staying around 10ish. I grabbed his hand for the last part of the journey and told him I missed him. God, I want him back.

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So tonight I'm gonna hang with my bud, Amy - we're gonna be social with our co-workers then go meet some DJ and his buddy. Maybe someone else will captivate me the way David did those years ago. I'm not hopeful. I don't even really want it to happen. Guess I have no choice.
Anyway - tomorrow we're doing this company mini-golf tourney. Then we're getting our hair done. I'm gonna go blonde for the first time since I was eleven. Should be interesting.

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On another note - I left David several IM's today. No response, all day. Hope nothing happened to him last night. I still worry.
He also finally replied to the letter I sent him and mentioned in previous entries. Said I didn't coerce him into anything - that he loved me and stuff.
I'm confused as hell. He loves me but doesn't want to be with me. I sent a response and asked lots of questions since my conclusion were apparently wrong. It's been almost a couple weeks now - no response. I can't understand any of this.