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[groovychk]

I hate humanity. All these years and never had one relationship work. Sick to death of it. Never ever thought I'd be one of those people that ended up alone. That's all I want now.

Comments

[nata5.livejournal.com]

Heh.. join the club.. we have jackets.

And you're a little hottie.. you can pick and choose who you can/want to be with.

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

Heh. That's what all guys think. I picked and chose to be with that asshole Draugr. You gotta remember that the guy gets to pick and choose too! Goes both ways my dear. Thanks for the compliment though. What are the jackets like?

[nata5.livejournal.com]

Wow.. I wish that was true that guys had the choice as well.

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

Oh come now - it isn't all one sided. It's not as easy as you all think. I have had to work at it quite a bit over the years. Still doesn't come easy. Granted - David came up to me and came on to me - but I was hoping he would. What kind of choice is it when there is nobody you want to choose? I've always been terrified of going up to guys and talking to them. Who cares if every other guy in the bar came up to me if it wasn't the one guy there that I was interested in. Just makes things more difficult actually.

[nata5.livejournal.com]

Yea I'm afraid of talking to women.. so yea.. from my perspective it's the womans choice. I also don't read people well at all.. so that girl trying to meet eyes with me or smiling gets overlooked.

But then again I don't think anyone has ever actually smiled at me and it not be forced.

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

Aww - I smile a lot in reality. Aside from the bitter holes I go into when someone fucks me over... I'm pretty sunny and optimistic most of the time. The label I was once stuck with and kind of grin at is "irrational optimist."
Didn't I smile when you were checking out the webcam?

[nata5.livejournal.com]

Heh.. complete opposite to me.

Webcam smile... I think so.. maybe.. dunno.

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

Well ya gotta look for the smiles to notice them!

[nata5.livejournal.com]

But I like the to be blind to things like that. Depression is fun!

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

I spent several years in a "black" state after my first fiancé dumped me. I started thinking it was kind of cool I think. I don't know really... your comment just reminded me of that. Heh. It ain't fun, hon.

[nata5.livejournal.com]

Yea it's not really fun but what I am used to. Go with what you know or something.