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[groovychk]

I think I'm shifting into yet another phase of my life. I've always been friendly and I like to do things for other people. Even people I barely know. I used to make friends very quickly but that seems to no longer be the case. I'm not sure what has changed - whether it's the world or my age or how I look or who I am or what - but it just doesn't happen so much anymore.
One thing I'm certain of is that I don't like feeling like I'm unwanted or a nuisance. Maybe people perceive things the wrong way but I'm extremely sick of it.
I think it is time for me to be a little selfish and stop being how I've always been. Time for me to tell some people to fuck off. I just don't have time for arrogant bullshit anymore.

Comments

[jackye.livejournal.com]

honesty will always keep those rat bastards at bay!

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

yeah - i need to try that one on. part of being too nice. i dunno - maybe i am trying a little too hard sometimes... the number of people i can do anything with socially in this city i can count on one hand.. not using all my fingers.. hehe. ah well! i probably should ask people what their f'ing problem is straight up... but i think i'm going to take a new tactic and just ignore them.

[jackye.livejournal.com]

you are the company you keep...keep that in mind when you try so hard to be nice to others. be picky, you are one of a kind!

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

good advice :-)

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

of course - if i keep no company - does that make me nobody? :-P

[xaminmo.livejournal.com]

People suck. That's pretty much it.

Arrogance, well, I dunno, I can't claim to be immune of that, especially in light of my above comment.

In some aspects I'm pretty arrogant, especially when challenged directly on something I'm pretty sure I'm right about.

Everyone is a nuisance to someone.

Do you want yourself?
Do you like yourself?
What do you do best?
Are you putting that skill or talent (or both) to proper use?

I think I had a direction, but it's gone.

[groovychk.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty arrogant - because I know I'm smart and quite often right about a lot of things. It's a component of my personality - but friends don't see it unless they know me well. Do I want myself? Sure - but not in a lesbian kind of way ;-)
Do I like myself? Pretty much. Self doubt has been getting bad lately though. What do I do best? Run universes I think. And I can only think of two people I'm a nuisance to... and I only give a flip about one of them. Anyone else that thinks I'm a nuisance? Well... aside from having no reason for that... they can go straight to hell :-)

[(Anonymous)]

You have just been through alot lately, But don't worry. Things will turn around.
Just when you least expect it, life is funny that way.
So here is a happy thought, no matter how crappy life seems to be right now,
there are people out there that are thinking great things about you!
you just don't know it.
-Zaphod